WHAT! am I talking about?!@*&!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Leisure afternoon in Millbrae Library
4:25pm


Sometimes things have to fall apart to fall into place.

Sometimes something needs to fall apart so something else can fall into place.

I like that notion...

in more ways than one.

Back pedaling, sure in my uncertainty, oxymoronically...

I drift



Maybe I’m just diluting myself. Head in the clouds,
dreaming up fairy tales: la la la

Or may be it’s more than just THAT. But how can one tell?

It’s all so complicated or may be it’s really simple. Either it’s NOT there. Or it is there and it’s meaningful; REAL and unexpected, nonetheless genuine and a thing to be...noted.

Some say there’s beauty in distortion. And if my perceptions are distorted, so be it; there’s a beauty in it. And time will tell if a crush will crash, if sun yellow raisins and purple prune juice mix well…!@?* if remainders will remain, if change rearranges existing structures...&c. &c. yadda yadda, blah blah blah.

Ambiguous like people and places, quiet moments, empty spaces...filling in blanks, hoping for the best and expecting the worst...

Ambiguous because I don’t know what I’m talking about.

Sometimes something (like my mind) needs to fall apart so something else (maybe my heart?) can fall into place.

hmmm...something to think about.