Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Jekyll and Hyde

DISCLAIMER: If you are easily offended by vulgar language and negativity, you probably better not fuckin' read on.


If you've known me long enough, you already know I have a dark side. I can be mean, impatient and very confrontational. I will push your buttons, point out your flaws, your fears, your insecurites and then call you a coward from not dealing with it, for not changing yourself; all you do is just bitch and whine and NOT do anything about it. Yes, I can be a fuckin' jerk, an asshole! IN-sensitive

Most of the time that is NOT me. People know me as a "nice guy" who encourages everyone around him, has an optimistic attitude-- Mr. Happy-go-lucky.

Well fuck that guy! THAT Philip has left the building. Actually I cracked him over the head with a 2x4 wooden stud and stuffed him in the basement.

I am Philip's alter ego.

If you've know me long enough, if you know me WELL enough, you know BOTH Philips and know that "Good Guy" Philip will be back shortly.

But let's allow "evil" to speak:



Don't complain to me, I don't want to hear ya shit. Deal with it. Identify the problem, find a solution and carry out that solution.

You want someone to just listen to you, go pay a fuckin' shrink. Waste of money if you ask me. You want someone to validate you, go to one of those dumb ass inspirational feel good seminars that help you realize you are somebody. Losers!

Deal with your shit on your own. Sit with the pain, Swim in your sorrow, your frustraion. Until it wears itself out.

You say: help me, help me. i say: help yourself, motherfucker! what your really saying is enable me, enable me, so we can be co-dependant. You fall, I pick you up, You fall again, I pick you again. and it goes on and on. Why don't you pick yourself up, you lazy fuck.

Ahh.... i think I've spit out enough venom.


What's this? "Good guy" philip is coming to...
he is... CONSCIOUS. Bye bye asshole Philip.

No, the truth is I am complex. Good and bad exist is a strange balance, in an intricate rhythm: stop, go, fast, slow, stop, go, fast, slow; moving forward in time like a melody-- long high notes followed by short,quick, low notes with a few Heavy Metal (Metallica-like) cymbal crashes in the mix.

Ok. Have a nice day =) hahaha

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