I Know What Time It Is!

brainstorming...

It's like I tell my students, sometimes you don't know what you want to say until you start saying it...

and so in the early stages of writing an essay, I'll encourage them to just talk to me about their ideas aloud and it is while they are talking that they often figure out something to say, a point to make, or a question to explore. Just gotta get the ball rolling and not be so fixated on the presentation and "fancy" phrasing of it. Just get it out! You can refine it later! Granted, this does not always work, sometimes we talk in circles or hit mental road blocks.

So now I am taking my own advice...I am brainstorming!

In the last couple weeks, I've realized I am out of practice. I forgot how to write! Funny that I help students with their writing, but have done very little writing of my own this year. And I am really rusty!

Right now, I have no idea what I'm saying, but hopefully by the end I'll have said something meaningful.

So hmm... what's going on?

Well, I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn't go back to sleep. So here I am writing cause...I dont really know!? I thought about going for an early morning run, but my ankles are shot. I'm thinking about maybe surfing before work, hmmm... maybe. Or I could do some reading to prep for the classes I'm working with today, but I don't want to "work" right now. I could cook; I could clean, I could...

Aha! And now I know what it is I'm saying. My point is this: These past two (or few) months I've been so wrapped up in a busy, hectic lifestyle: training for a fight, while working, while applying to grad school, and being sick most of that time... (so busy I forget to finish sentences!)

And now, with all that done, completed and behind me, I don't know what to do with myself!

There's all this free time that I didn't have before, and it's nice, but it's also unfamiliar. I'm used to being high strung and having almost every hour of my day planned out. I'm using to NOT having time to do it all. I'm used to feeling overhwelmed. And now I'm under-whelmed! haha

So that's what I'm saying, that's where I am at.

So where do I go now?

I don't know exactly where I'm going to go, but I feel good that I have time to think about it and time to NOT think about it. I have time. I DON'T have to plan every second of my life. freedom...

I know what time it is! It's early that's what time it is...