Learning to live in the grey, weaving through three layers.

Someone I know once noted that people make themselves seem busy to bolster self-worth, alluding to the notion that being busy means you’re important.  It struck me; I do this!  I also do the complete opposite, I make it seem as if I have all the free time in the world, so much so that I can do many fun activities.  In a similar way, I try to present myself as someone who has his sh*t together and therefore has much leisure time because.... “important” people also have the luxury of NOT being busy and indulging in pleasure.  Being overtly busy and being totally carefree can be two sides of the same coin.  Upon this self-realization, I don’t want to buy into the idea that either of these personas are always true all the time.  The coin does not always land on heads, nor does it land on tails every time.  The truth is the coin is flipped in the air where it is neither heads nor tails, it is in constant flux.  It is neither black nor white; it is grey. The area between two opposites.  It is balance.  I try to be balanced in my ways and I am willing to go to both extremes to find my own personal balance.  I  weave through the hills and valleys and find an even keel, in the process, learn to live in the grey.